At a recent open meeting, I was asked to read "How It Works." Not a big deal really...I've done it bunches of times at other meetings. I was happy to do it. Until I found out I had to step up to the podium to do it. Yikes. I am not fond of speaking in front of people, much less from a podium in front of everyone. I realize this is a fear I must conquer, after all, I will be giving a lead some day and how can I do that if I'm too scared?? Dilema, dilema. So, I did my duty, quickly and with a shaky voice but I did it none the less. This got me pondering. I really have trouble getting my thoughts and feelings out at meetings as well. I have it in me, I just don't have the umphf to express it. As I sit here and write this blog entry, I have no trouble at all getting my thoughts out but if I were to have to read this aloud in front of a group of people, I'd be terrified. What is at the root of this fear? I needed to approach the problem in the right way. So...I decided to research this. The correct term is glossophobia. Who knew...I have "glossophobia". Not a good thing to have when it's your turn to share at an AA meeting. Apparently, this is a very common phobia but one that I wish to abate. Maybe this blog will be of some help. Maybe I should quit trying to come up with something profound to say and just speak from my heart. Hmmmm...sounds like a good plan. Let's hope it works.
Peace and love.
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