Timeless Friendship

I consider myself quite blessed to experience timeless friendship.  On a recent trip back home to Missouri, I had the opportunity to spend time with two of my dearest and oldest friends.  These are friendships that have withstood divorce, illness, death, and...my alcoholism and addiction.  When I look back on how I took for granted what was most important in life and chose instead to seek out that next drunk or that next high, it is not a good feeling, however, it helps me now to see how fortunate I am to have such blessings.  Did I lose some friendships?  Yes.  Do I wallow in that?  No.  That is because I realize now what real friendship is and who my real friends are.  Having done my 4th and 5th steps, I do see what part I played in whatever situation, I owned it but I have let go of the bad.  I have embraced the good.  I have cleansed myself of my past behavior and now concentrate on how to be a better friend, sister, daughter, employee, sponsee and, above all, I have learned that holding on to the mistakes of my past keep me from living in today and hoping for tomorrow.  I cherish my old friendships, as well as my new friendships that I have made in my new life's journey.  I know that the only thing these friends "want" from me is my happiness and for me to stay clean and sober.  Not too much to ask.

Peace and Love.